oh goshh... whats happening to my msn...
keep kena disconnected... and somemore .
THOSE PEOPLE who use mobile log in msn KEEPS sending me IRRITATING msges..
piss off.
on a lighter tone, today i spend my whole day AT HOME :D
never step out of my house until ! omgoshh. im so happy (:
watched Hana Yori Dango Korea, Kiina, Hana Yori Dango Korea, Kiina, Hana Yori Dango Korea, Kiina ...
and keep eating .... darn. wasted my few days of dieting ...
thats the bad point of staying at home...
walauuuuuuu. msn disconnected again !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyways, the time pass like so the fast...
i thought yesterday was like monday ? and in a blink of an eye, one love is in 2 days time ?
sigh. im having mixed feeling now.
BLANKO BELOW ONWORDS..
i brought her to church. with an unwilling heart. cos' i dont quite like the sight of her.
but somehow, God let her overheard the conversation between me and F.
then she say she wants to come my church also.
of cos' i say okay .
but at that moment, i regretted asking her to come.
from then on, everyweek she came.
i just pretend to be on good terms with her.
then after a few weeks she told me she not coming already cos' got something on.
for that 3 weeks i was glad that she didnt come. i know god, i knw thats a bad thought. but i cant help it.
but somehow, when i didnt see her during my vocal lessons and after service, i felt something is missing.
then yesterday, when working.
my heart is somehow prompting me to ask her to go for one love.
yes. i listened to my heart and ask her. but somehow, another part of me dont want her to go ! i was reluctant to ask her !!
but i still asked. so thank God.
she said yes, but added she cannot go until too late.
so i said it wont be too late. it would only end around 10.
and so she is going .
i regretted you knowGod.
i regretted.
but how ?
i know you are speaking to me.
i listened. so lord, i pray that you will bring something out of it.
so that i would be glad that i actually listen to you.
Lord, i really need you to talk to me again.
i know that lord, everyone is your children.
i cannot chose. but only to bring them to you. so lord, i bring her to you with a heart that is not willing. Lord, i open up my heart. talk to me.
