in the afternoon went over to see the worship team practice.
its beeen like sooooo long since i went for worship practice alr.
remember last time like almost every single week i would go, cos' im serving almost every single week.
but now, HAHA!
i think got 2 months never serve alr lor ):
im gonna serve next weeek!! THE FIRST WEEEK OF THE YEAR :DDD

as i was watching them practicing, my church's drummer was whao.
as i look at him hitting the drums, i was as though pull into another world by him.
he was super engross in worshipping, enjoying hitting his drums as he play.
the whole band was ...... worshipping God with all their heart, soul and mind.
it was really great and fantastic(:
ilove Agape worship team:D

as i think of them serving God in various gifts they have, i think back to myself. whats my gift.
although im in the worship team, but heh. i think im not up to it.
but, God say He will help me, to be where i wanna be in the worship team!
& so im gonna try. but i neeed time and courage.

i remembered that this person told me.
my gift is now like a broken knife.
broken and thrown away one side.
i think is that gift.
cos' for a long time i haven beeen using it alr.
but you know Lord.
this gift you have given me will pull me away from my comfort zone.
and into this new zone that you wanna place me in.
now, im so comfortable in this zone.
but you made me realise that i have to leave this zone, to another zone in order to fully utilise this gift that you have for me.
Lord.
help me to get away from this comfort zone, assure me even more that even if i leave this comfort zone, i will not be alone, nor i will fear.

i used this gift to bring someone new to church.
but i never continue to use this gift to love that friend.
i know im bad.
i know i know i know.
but if i continue to use this gift, it will pull me away.
cos' i have to always stick with my friend but i cant spend as much time with others.
arghs. i dont know lar.
i only know im bad.
arghs! where is the loveeee that i have beeeen claimingg alll these while !?!??!??!
ZZZZZZZZZ.

IRRITATED.