“For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever.” (1 Thessalonians 4:16-17)

in the bus, i was just imagining. what if God came down at 2012 and bring us back to be with him.
HO.
by then i think i cant see how my kids would look like.
i just finished my torture of studying.
i haven started my SOT.
i haven even fully make use of that piece of paper to find job.
i haven fully commit myself full time into ministry.
i just gotten my joy of no studies!
such a stupid thought.

i also realise one stupid thing.
when others are in trouble, you cann plag plag plag so many encouraging words, comforting words.
but when ownself are in trouble, you cann see that those words are being thrown back to you.
cos' those way here and there are still the same.
you have anything new for me anot.
i need some right now.

i seriously need to get some kick in my life right now.
i feel as lousy at a shit.
just cos' of a stupid tinny winny mid sem exam actually spur me on a volcano, spur me on a roller coaster.
spare me some love would you.
love, not kpo-ness.
please.