the most wonderful thing that had happened to me today was that i had a great fellowship.
it wasnt a normal one, but it was an exciting one. it was a deep one. it was a fellowship that ignites the hearts again. it was just a unique one.
im glad that i was there(:

for once, i see a light in my future.
i dont know why.
not that i see my future as darkness, but i cann see God in my future.
the feeling is so exciting, so cool!

i realise.. nope should be i already know.
that im going to be empty.
that fire is no longer burning strongly.
but today!
i cann feel!
i really wanna do something for God!
i cann see what i wanna do for God!
i am FREEEEEEEEEE!

baptism.
i regretted the day that i've baptise.
cos' i baptise for the sake of it.
but now.
i wanna be baptise AGAIN!
i want to be REBORN AGAIN!
i want to be on FIRE FOR GOD AGAIN!
i want to ACCOMPLISH THINGS AGAIN!
no longer i want to be the one who is lazy.
who does things for the sake of doing.
who lives under expectation.
who follows people.
but i want to be like Jesus, my beautiful saviour.
can you feel my feelings now?!?!?!?!?! :DDD

i think i've found the reason why i didnt stayed 'there' for long.
why i didnt feel like attending it at all.
cos' im not adpated to that.
i need something similar, yet something different.
i think i know what i want.
i need to realise my potential.
i need to platform to do it.

i think i've grown up a little bit more now.
i think i understand myself clearly now.