nope.
im not trying to emo right now, this min.
im just trying to pen down my thoughts.
type down my thoughts.
cos' i think its overflowing again.

life has been too fast for me.
or i should say.
too slack for me.
everything i did, i did.
i hang out with friends.
i go church.
i communicate.
i pray.
i study.
i love.
etc.
but.
i am just rushing through the things that i have to do.

keeping contact with friends.
to maintain relationships.
mingle with classmates.
creating a comfortable space.
and lotsa things. for different purposes.
now.
after onelove.
i wanna bring my friends to salvation.
but come on.
they rejected me.
nope. they rejected Christ.
cos' of him, i was rejected too.
i want them to go heaven.
but.
what should i do.
okays.
stop preaching to me about asking them to come to events.
cos' i want to bring church to them.
not bring them to church.

im sad.
pretty sad now.
pretty empty now.
i wont get to see him now either.
im going to find Jesus.
i miss him so much.
yes.
i miss him so much...