now, think of him would only cause more pain in me .
remembered all the good things and nice things he have done, making me feeling stupid why did i pick a quarrel with him every now and then.
he is such a patient person and i think he is only one who cann tolerate my sucky attitude x(
argh.
thinking back i feel i am such a stupid person x(
i still love him alot...
yesterday night did not cry at all.
it was just a few drops of tears flowed out from my eyes.
i realise i could not cry anymore.
i have been dried up ...
its a good thing actually.
then i dont have to cry everyday when i think of him.
i dont know if i have the guts to see him and face him.
cos' i feared that i cannot contain my emotions and would just burst out crying.
i really need his love and huggies that give me the comfort and care...